Good News is Always Welcome

Well, guys, I’ve managed to change my major as I was hopeful to do. Though my depression has still being kicking my ass, repeatedly I might add, this bit of good news put a smile on my face. It was much easier than I’d initially thought, and there will be no changes to my student loan status(thankfully, because it’s already through the roof on costs). All of the technology classes I’ve taken are going to be counted as electives, as well as the current statistics class I am in. I suppose that should make feel better, considering despite my efforts I’m doing terribly in it.

You all know I normally keep faith and religion out of my posts, as I am a firm believer in the fact that one must always respect another’s way of thinking. However, I must say that my faith is what has kept me going these last few months, more so in the last few weeks. No matter what you personally believe, I hope you all have something to cling to in trying times, and that despite differences you all help others when you can. My husband does not believe as I do, in fact he’s what you might call agnostic. You know, believes there’s “something” but not sure what it is…you’d think our household was chaotic, and filled with arguments. To a point it is, no one is perfect, we often disagree on many things, namely the fact that my daughter starts school next year. I’ve decided to give her a christian-based home/online school curriculum, as she does have a few learning disabilities and often “shuts down” when overwhelmed. To us, it is easier to do this, and by choosing the curriculum I have, I ensure she gets a good education(probably better than in a public school system). Her father and I agree with it equally, however my husband(her step-father) is having some doubts. I’ve assured him religious studies will be minimal and he’s accepted that. I suppose it will all work out, though.

I’ve also gotten about $600 in savings finally! That’s something I am extremely proud of myself for this, as I’ve never been able to do this before. I know it doesn’t seem like much, but to me I feel very accomplished. I’ve been writing my book, studying, and also trying to be a much better parent to my daughter, as I’ve not been spending as much time with her as I’d like to. She is growing up before my eyes, and I’d like to say I’ve been there as much as possible for her. As a parent, we all have fears and concerns, like we aren’t as good as we’d like to be. However, we are. We are good enough. As long as we love, and teach, and care for our children we are good enough!

Not only have I been doing things I never thought possible, and trying to ignore those pesky pessimistic feelings, I’ve also been learning more french in hopes that by this time next year I’ll be fluent enough to feel comfortable reading some novels in another language. If I have learned one thing through this annoying and pathetic little “quarter life crisis” of mine, it is this: We are in charge of our own happiness. As quoted by the great Lady Eleanor Roosevelt: “No one may make you feel inferior without your consent”

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Hey guys, as you can clearly see, I have been working on adding some helpful information to the blog. I had no luck in recovering my previous articles, but I’m okay with that. I didn’t think them very well written anyways. I’ve been pretty busy the last few days with school work, and found that starting next week I’ll begin my process of switching my major. While I love varying aspects of IT, I think it is more suited as a hobby, and not a career. Unfortunately, it took me taking three different IT classes for me to realize this, but the good news is that all of the classes will count as elective, so I didn’t waste money in the long run. I also will keep learning different aspects of the field, because as another blogger states, you don’t necessarily have to have a degree in a certain field to enjoy it or be decent with it.

In 7 weeks I’ll be on my way to a degree in my passion of history. I also found out thanks to a pilot friend of mine that there is a group of civilians that are nationally known as the Commemorative Air Force here in the USA. I have been to a few of their airshows and museums, but never really knew how nationally known they were. They are a group of military veterans and civilians who work to keep former aviation history alive. There is also potential to learn to work as a ground crew during airshows, and even learning to fly if interested. Though I have no intentions to ever fly, as I really don’t like being inside a plane upon takeoff, I would definitely enjoy learning more about the lesser known military aircraft.

As you can all see, this revelation has me quite excited, as I was surprised that my husband finally told me to do what makes me happy and he’ll be quite glad to move somewhere for em to work in a museum if I choose. Both he and my cousin have also encouraged me to continue work on a novel I started years ago. Though it needs some major rewriting, it’s a good basis for me to keep my work going. I have no notions of being a famous author, or anything like that, but if just one person enjoys my book than I feel like I’ve done well. I love writing historical fiction, and though I’ve never been good at writing romance, that’s exactly what I’m attempting. It will be a book, revolving around four central characters in various military branches set during WW II. Romance, drama, tragedy: It’s all part of life in 1941 America. I know it will take some time to truly make it a work of art, but I’m confident I’ll be able to at least be proud of it once I’ve completed it.

I’ve been doing fairly well with my diet even, except the last two days as I’ve hit a slump of depression again. I am going through what the owner of my company calls a “quarter life crisis of identity”, and I suppose he is right. On one hand, I think turning 27 in 4 months has me down because I feel as if I’ve nothing to show for my first 10 years of adulthood. However, on the other hand, while I will always wish I’d made more of these last years, I’m grateful it only took me this long to find out what I want in life, and who I want to be. Some people spend their entire lives not knowing who they are. I consider myself luckier than some in that I figured it out before 30. My life is nowhere near perfect, and honestly at times it really sucks, but it’s up to me to change what I am unhappy about. I can do that. I’ve already begun steps to do so, and that has boosted my spirits quite a bit.

I want to thank all of my readers for their kind words this last year. I promise this next year will hold great things for Simplistically Shanae, and I will work my hardest to bring you all useful information in life.