January 2019: Another Year Older
I am highly considering purchasing a MacBook Air within the next couple of months. The more I read into The Odin Project lessons on web development, the harder it is for me to use my HP, as most of their lessons are hands on and not compatible with Windows OS. A basic MacBook Air is still high in price for what I can spend right now, but I feel like it should suffice for my learning abilities at their current level, and a bit into future learning.
My birthday is in less than a week, and honestly despite turning 28 I’m still somewhat looking forward to it. I have started two new medications for my anxiety, and they do not allow for the consumption of alcohol, so I am keeping it small and to my bedroom for my birthday. I’ve picked an excellent video playlist, and my husband is going to cook me a delightful dinner.
I am six months from graduating with my bachelor of arts in history, and will be immediately returning to the books for a secondary degree in web development. My struggles with mathematics are at an all-time high, but I am confident with my new medication regimen, which helps ease my distractions, anxiety, and helped to focus that I may just be able to pass that horrid statistics class.
Things with my husband are going much better, and we’ve both grown in ways that I cannot even fathom over the last few months. I have discovered a happiness within myself, and growing self-worth that has given such peace to my mind and soul. It took so long for me to decide I am worth something. I have potential. I can follow my dreams. I will get past all these challenges, and come out on top! It took me far too long to accept this.
I have been eating lean meats, no soda pop at all and a ton of water. My biggest issue thus far is the fact I still do not eat frequently enough. Often it’s simply I forget to go home and cook myself a lunch, and in the morning I often forget to even pack one. By that point, I just honestly forget to eat lunch.
I have also broadened my horizons with tea, and started really enjoying white tea and oolong tea. They’re subtle, and nowhere near as strong as earl gray or chai. This coupled with water, lean meats and no processed foods have helped me feel much better.