Category: Thoughts

Faith, Trust, and a Little Pixie Dust

As you can see, my blog looks quite different than it used to. This is apparent in my deviating from my normal title series, as well as the overall appearance. The reason for this being is that I finally broke down and paid for a WordPress theme, as my coding skills are basically non-existent, and have been for quite a few years now. 

This theme, though highly edited, is a theme called Avant, and I am actually using a child theme of Avant, along with some customised CSS coding that I could manage after a bit of a headache. I’m also using a plugin for this theme called “Elementor” for this post. This is my first attempt at using this plugin, and though I’ll admit the customisation abilities for my post are greatly improved, it’s a bit of a learning curve. 

As you’ll see with this post, I need to practice a bit with formatting if I continue to use Elementor. That being said, there is something to be said for the post-writing options!

It is my hope that eventually I’ll have the money to take a few courses, even if they have to be online, to become proficient in at least basic coding. I don’t live in an area that offers any kind of workshops, so I have to either teach myself, (somehow), or find enough tutorials and hope I catch on. I’d LOVE to be able to get a second bachelor’s degree, but I can’t even afford the one I’m almost done with. So, for now it’s out of the question. Still, that doesn’t mean I can’t learn on my own, and test for certifications at the very least. 

Studies

 I am about halfway through my first trimester of my final full year as an undergraduate, and as much as my previous post hinted at the difficulty of the current classes I’m in, it was an understatement compared to this week.

 I’ve got two very long, very detailed essays due by the end of this week, and honestly, I’m procrastinating badly due to not only being quite tired, but also quite burned out on life in general. However, considering I’ve gotten them both about halfway done, I consider that one hell of an accomplishment for this week. 

 Luckily, I will be going to my mother’s house Thursday-Monday, and will be able to unwind a bit. Even if her behaviours stress me out to some degree, it’s also strangely a good place for me to study after everyone else heads to bed. I’ll be able to get some writing done, and proofread while there. 


Personal

 Aside from the studies aspect of the last few weeks, I can also say last week I felt completely great about my workout routine, as well as myself. My only concern is of the last few days and my depression starting to kick in bad. It seems that every time I begin to feel better about my life, and working toward a fulfilling future for myself that something always gets me in a very dark place mentally. Often, it is something completely inconsequential, but just enough to cause a downward spiral.

 I’ve decided that keeping some sort of “Thought Journal” can only help at this point, if nothing else for me to share my thoughts and feelings when talking to someone won’t do. In fact, talking to others usually worsens my mood lately, as I’ve not been surrounding myself with the right “type” of people. Don’t get me wrong, they’re not specifically doing anything one might consider “bad”, but they’re not necessarily good for my mental well-being.  

Upcoming: April Planning

 I’m currently planning for a camping trip across state, taking place May 4th-8th, at a Texas state park called Possum Kingdom Lake. It’s quite popular during the spring and summer months. While I am looking forward to the change of scenery, and the camping, I am not looking forward to the mosquitos and heat. I’ll get some beautiful pictures out of the trip, regardless.

 This particular camping trip is somewhat of a “family reunion” for my maternal family. Despite not getting along with them much, I’d like for my daughter to be able to enjoy seeing family that she rarely gets to mingle with. That being said, I don’t know how many of you have ever tried to take a 5 year old camping in 100+ degree heat, but it usually involves a lot of whining and dramatics. I’m trying to be preemptive and order a few battery-powered fans, as well as some easily done tent activities for her. 

 The end of April will see the aforementioned difficult classes coming to a close, only to begin two more classes while still on my camping trip. (Thank God for the development of cellular hotspots) Emma will also have school while we are camping, but only for two days. I definitely plan on taking the camping trip as an opportunity to do some fun science-related topics to incorporate into her schooling. 

 I am the Secretary for my university’s Outdoor Club, and with this month being a very ecological-minded month due to Earth Day, our entire club has been working on activities and information for all university students. This got me thinking about how I could do more in my home to help institute environmentally friendly practices. My husband and I have decided to attempt to plant a few trees, and though we will be moving before they grow much, perhaps over the next year we will have cared for them enough to take root and withstand this awful climate. I’d also like to buy a few hard-to-kill house plants to freshen up my home, and purify the air some. 

Health and Lifestyle

 I’ve not had to buy new jeans yet, which is quite the let down. However, I did have to buy a smaller size of athletic pants when going shopping for gym clothing, and that made me feel fairly good for a moment! I do, overall, feel much healthier in that I’ve not had near as many gastrointestinal issues as before. I also feel quite a bit less lethargic than I did a couple of months ago, and noticed that my headaches are less frequent.

 When going to the doctor recently, I did find that I have an early onset of arthritis, which explains previous complaints of joint pain, stiffness, and the occasional locking of my fingers. As awful as that may sound, Naproxen Sodium(Aleve) has drastically helped just in the two weeks I’ve been taking it. I can work out almost double my previous record due to the pain being much less. As I lose weight, my symptoms should ease even more, which just gives me more motivation than previously thought. 

Reflections

Reading: New World’s for All-Colin Calloway

Writing: Two term papers…please kill me…

MAY GOALS:

  •  Finish HIS-314 with a B+/A- at least(hopefully an even A)
  • Finish HIS-117 with an A/A+
  • Need to either buy a belt, or finally get to buy a smaller pants size
  • Actually be prepared for a trip for once in my life -.-