Good News is Always Welcome

Well, guys, I’ve managed to change my major as I was hopeful to do. Though my depression has still being kicking my ass, repeatedly I might add, this bit of good news put a smile on my face. It was much easier than I’d initially thought, and there will be no changes to my student loan status(thankfully, because it’s already through the roof on costs). All of the technology classes I’ve taken are going to be counted as electives, as well as the current statistics class I am in. I suppose that should make feel better, considering despite my efforts I’m doing terribly in it.

You all know I normally keep faith and religion out of my posts, as I am a firm believer in the fact that one must always respect another’s way of thinking. However, I must say that my faith is what has kept me going these last few months, more so in the last few weeks. No matter what you personally believe, I hope you all have something to cling to in trying times, and that despite differences you all help others when you can. My husband does not believe as I do, in fact he’s what you might call agnostic. You know, believes there’s “something” but not sure what it is…you’d think our household was chaotic, and filled with arguments. To a point it is, no one is perfect, we often disagree on many things, namely the fact that my daughter starts school next year. I’ve decided to give her a christian-based home/online school curriculum, as she does have a few learning disabilities and often “shuts down” when overwhelmed. To us, it is easier to do this, and by choosing the curriculum I have, I ensure she gets a good education(probably better than in a public school system). Her father and I agree with it equally, however my husband(her step-father) is having some doubts. I’ve assured him religious studies will be minimal and he’s accepted that. I suppose it will all work out, though.

I’ve also gotten about $600 in savings finally! That’s something I am extremely proud of myself for this, as I’ve never been able to do this before. I know it doesn’t seem like much, but to me I feel very accomplished. I’ve been writing my book, studying, and also trying to be a much better parent to my daughter, as I’ve not been spending as much time with her as I’d like to. She is growing up before my eyes, and I’d like to say I’ve been there as much as possible for her. As a parent, we all have fears and concerns, like we aren’t as good as we’d like to be. However, we are. We are good enough. As long as we love, and teach, and care for our children we are good enough!

Not only have I been doing things I never thought possible, and trying to ignore those pesky pessimistic feelings, I’ve also been learning more french in hopes that by this time next year I’ll be fluent enough to feel comfortable reading some novels in another language. If I have learned one thing through this annoying and pathetic little “quarter life crisis” of mine, it is this: We are in charge of our own happiness. As quoted by the great Lady Eleanor Roosevelt: “No one may make you feel inferior without your consent”

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  1. I’m glad that your faith has been keeping you going over the last few months. If that’s what helps, don’t worry what other people think or say 🙂 Just keep doing you.

    Well done on saving so much money, go you!!

  2. We indeed are the only ones who can make ourselves happy. I think a lot of people forget this (depression is a demonic disease in this sense), and somehow assume something or someone will make it all better… Unfortunately, until you take the reigns and say FUCK YOU! It doesn’t get better.
    I’m so glad you found what’s going to be happy, and things are going around swimmingly to let you switch majors and pursue ambitions. I always find myself to be happiest when I’m actively working on something (another reason why I love doing random challenges all the time LOL), and I generally start getting a bit depressed when I feel like I’m losing control or momentum in my life, and not sure where I’m going with it. I’ve been feeling really down for a while, especially with my medical shenanigans, but I’m feeling a lot better once I’m making those LIFE GOAL PLANS and working towards stuff (like the #100DaysOfCode).
    If you ever need someone to chat with, I’m always online. Hit me up on Facebook messenger or Twitter or Gchat or something. 🙂

    1. I was actually away for three days unexpectedly, and had a tire blow out on the highway and completely tore my car up. Stupid hyundai’s. I have a 2013 accent and when the tire blew(right front) it snapped the wire for my ABS system, Power steering line has a hole in it, and the side panel is all messed up. It’s currently sitting in my best friend’s driveway and hour away -.-

      I’m definitely having a rough year to say the least, lol. So here’s to hoping next year will be amazing, and may finally be “my year”. That’s what I’m aiming for at least!

  3. It’s always been so hard for me to save money as well. I’ve been struggling to pay off my credit cards as it is, because I always impulse buy as I want all the things, but seeing as I’ve made a pretty big dent on my payments, I’ve been pretty proud of myself – although I’m always broke at the end of the month.

    1. See, I have no credit cards, but that’s because as it stands my credit is NOT that great. I’ve actually spent most of this year working on that though, and so far I’ve made some decent progress. It’s just hard as hell when you’re already living paycheck to paycheck for sure! I definitely feel ya Bran.

  4. That’s great that you where able to change your major. I’m glad that all worked out for you. Ug, I need to start working on my savings. It is pathetic right now, lol.
    I grew up in a christian family but it doesn’t exactly follow me now. It’s not that I don’t believe in a God or anything it is just I tend to stay away from religious stuff due to being burned by church’s I once attended. I do not think there is anything wrong with having that to help you, my mother is the same way. I think it is a great thing really. Hopefully you and your husband can work out something on all that.

    1. Thanks Ashley =)
      I hope so as well. I also do not attend church anymore, but that is due to my own beliefs that it’s become too self-righteous and political.

  5. Glad to hear things have been going well recently! It’s great that you’ve managed to get some savings together. Savings are always good to have!

    It’s nice to hear you’ve been spending more time with your daughter lately. It’ll be great to have all those memories as she grows up.

    Good luck with your studies. Hope it all goes well!

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